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Go Deep

I need to reach deep into myself to gather my strength. Part of me wants to turn away, to hide. Is it a defense that automatically turns on to protect my heart from pain? But I feel I must bear witness, to see and hear what others are suffering, to honor their lives. I see you New York, New Jersey, Detroit, New Orleans, Georgia, Washington, my state of California, my country.

We must be in this together.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word for today is ‘deep.’

Featured image by Gerd Altmann on Pixabay.com

Small Positives

My morning routine is to open my computer and review the news with toast and coffee on the side.  I spend more time with the news in the past week because of what we are enduring here. There is still a sense of unreality, what day is this, how long has thing been going on?  Recent sunshine encouraged me to get out and do some work in the back yard. something I can do while maintaining social distancing. I pulled up several dandelions and other assorted weeds, pulled out patches of dead woolly thyme, and trimmed back the low hanging branches of the Pyracantha. We discovered some unexpected residents near one of our front gates, a nest of bumblebees. I was a little wary until I read that they are not especially aggressive and will move out after a few months. I was excited to see bumblebees because I haven’t seen them in the yard for a long time and read that they are endangered. Some news this morning reminiscent of a dystopian movie, Coyotes are walking the streets in San Francisco 

I can hear a chickadee calling outside. The other day, my daughter and I had noticed some chickadees taking a bath in one of our planter pot saucers. She put some fresh water in it and left a few sunflower seeds too. One of the squirrels discovered the sunflower seeds and made quick work of them.

We had a Zoom virtual visit with our 3 year old grandson yesterday evening. That’s always a positive.

The hospital ship Mercy, with 1,000 beds, arrived in Los Angeles Friday and is ready to go.

Below some photos from the yard. You can’t see the bumblebees flying out from their nest because if I try to get close enough they chase me away.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “beside you.” Write about whatever is beside you when you read this prompt.

Featured image of bumblebee by dennisflarsen on Pixabay.com

The New Normal

My husband and I have made some trips to the market this week. I thought I had a good system in place with grocery delivery but our local stores have been overwhelmed with orders and sent an email notice they were unable to fill my order. So we decided to head out to a local market earlier this week. I was a bit anxious of possible exposure to coronavirus but it turned out the store was almost empty of people and  stock. The bagger told me there had been a long line when the store opened that morning. It was disorienting to see empty shelves. We picked up what we could. No meat or chicken available but I found a few packages of fish. We had a couple of markets offer new ‘senior hours’ this week (7-8 AM) so we headed out for a second time. The first market had a long line filing in so we decided to try another that was not crowded. I was able to find a few more items I needed. I like the accommodation by markets for seniors and those with special needs. I am working on making do with what is available like non-fat milk.

I wrote this post prior to the news of the order from Governor Gavin Newsom that all the citizens in my beautiful state of California are ordered to shelter in place. From the LA Times:

“Gov. Gavin Newsom has ordered all Californians to stay at home….He also asked Congress for $1 billion to support the state’s medical response to the coronavirus, saying he expects more than half of all Californians — roughly 25.5 million — will be infected over an eight-week period [without mitigation efforts].”

God, what is happening to us?

The U.S. Navy hospital ship USNS Mercy is anchored off the coast of Manila, the Philippines. (U.S. Navy photo/Photographers Mate 2nd Class Troy Latham)

“Gov. Gavin Newsom has asked President Trump to immediately deploy a United States Navy hospital ship Mercy to the Port of Los Angeles to help beef up the health care delivery system in the region amid the ongoing novel coronavirus pandemic.” (Los Angeles Daily News)

We can still go out to buy food. Our kids are nearby for which we are grateful. The prompt word today is ‘welcome’ but hard to write about that. The latest here is ‘unwelcome’ news.


Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt for this Saturday is ‘welcome.’


Like a bird perched precariously on a telephone wire I have been on edge about the pandemic circling our world. I have been lulled into a sense of security with my yearly flu vaccine and now see that I am still vulnerable to these rogue bugs. I do feel a bit better that our government and some business leaders are stepping up with better access to testing, preparedness, and help for people who may lack access to healthcare and need support with paid sick leave and unemployment insurance. It does help to hear our leaders say ‘We are all in this together.’

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word for today is ‘wire.’ Featured image ‘Like a bird on the wire,’ by Liam Moloney on Flickr.com

Go Figure

I have always prided myself on having an aptitude for numbers but there are things I have trouble figuring out. Seems like we could elect your pet dog, cat, rock, or favorite house plant for President before we will consider electing a woman.

Oh No Catherine Ohara GIF by Schitt's Creek - Find & Share on GIPHY

I’m being facetious. But really? ! What gives?

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word for today is ‘figure.

GIF ‘Oh No Catherine O’Hara by Schitt’s Creek on Giphy.com


Perfect. I think I want things to be perfect and always fall short of that goal. Why do I have this expectation? This leads to being let down and then the mind picks another perfect goal. Everything will be great when _____happens. Or this can cause me to be overwhelmed with a task and have trouble beginning or finishing.  Need to let go of perfection and be happy with good enough.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt for today is “ect.” Find a word with the letters “ect” in it, and base your post on that word. (Not to be confused with “et cetera,” which is “etc.”)

Featured image of ‘ Mirroring’ by lukasbieri on Pixabay.com


Cat Talk

I became the primary caregiver for the family cat when my daughter went away to college. I really bonded with Angel and later grieved a great deal when she died. I learned through my relationship with our cat that animals do have their own personalities. Angel was not friendly with everyone and it took a while before she would allow you in. She was very territorial about her little domain and would go berserk if she spotted another cat in our backyard. She would keep watch through our large glass patio doors. She took note of birds and their songs and would mimic them with her own high pitched tweet-like sounds.  Her daily routine involved a reconnoiter of our yard to make sure everything was in order. She did hunt small creatures like birds, lizards, and rats. It was upsetting to find her prey in the house or swimming pool. We would rescue them if still alive. I remember making a few trips to local animal shelters or vets to drop off baby birds. Angel was able to bring some catches into our house because she learned how to slide open our screen door. I have a vivid memory of a day I was in the yard and spotted Angel standing at the screen door with a rat in her mouth, her paw positioned to slide open the door. Panicked by the thought of her bringing this latest prize in to our house I quickly grabbed the garden house and aimed it at the cat shouting ‘drop it!’ I swear Angel made a sound like a disappointed sigh, ‘awhhhrr’, and dropped the rat who staggered away.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt for today is “animal sounds.” Write about the sounds animals make and how you experience them.

Featured image ‘Woman with a cat’ by Pierre-Auguste Renoir via Wikimedia.org

Pack You Bags

I hope to have the opportunity to travel more before I leave this world. We put off travel for so long and now it’s almost too late. But I want to do it at a slower pace and not run from place to place on a high speed tour. Need to make the dreams a reality. We did renew our passports already. We just have to plan the destination and pack our bags.

Vintage image by Oberholster Venita on Pixabay.com

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “(un)pack.” Use “pack” or its opposite in your post. “

Featured image of Vintage Paper by Diane Hannah on Pixabay.com

Simple Choices

I most often want to finish a book I have started before starting a new one. I don’t like to give up on a book even if it seems like a slow start or I can’t get into it. These are rules of reading I have followed and don’t know how I started to believe in them. A small way of imposing order in my world maybe. But lately I have decided that if I am not enjoying a book, I will stop reading it. I do not want to waste my time. Is it because I am older and don’t feel like I have all the time in the world left to me? I made the decision to get most of my books from the local public library but find myself ordering more books online as well. I like having more time to finish a book and not waiting on a long wait list to get a popular and or new release from the library. I still get books from the library if they are not recent releases. I just splurged on the latest Michael Connelly book but was practical and patient to order the latest John Grisham book from the library. I ordered John Grisham’s book from last year as well and picked it up from the library. I had started the Connelly book but decided to get started on the Grisham book because I knew I would have to return it and I know I have more time in the world to read a book I own.

Stream of Consciousness Saturday, #SOCS, is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt today “ for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “choices.” Base your post on the subject of making small, uneventful choices. “

Featured image is ‘Take Your Choice’ by John Frederick Peto (1854-1907) in the National Gallery of Art via Wikemedia.org