“If you aren’t in over your head, how do you know how tall you are?” -T.S. Eliot
I was rushing across the Middle School yard looking for my classroom. This was to be the first day in the classroom of my mentor, of the first semester of my Accelerated Collaborative Teacher ( ACT) Preparation Program. My aim was to obtain a Special Education Teaching Credential. I was returning to college after 35 years and taking 21 units this first semester. It was an accelerated program after all and I was to complete the course work in two semesters. As I rushed along across the school yard, balancing on my narrow high healed wedge sandals, arms full of binders, and dragging a rolling backpack, my ankle turned.
A school yard like this
Similar to my shoes
I felt a sickening disorientation as I saw the ground rising up toward me. I fell face down on the tarmac. A student came over to ask if I was all right and helped me up. A staff member came over as well to make sure. I felt embarrassed that I was this lady falling down in the middle of the school yard. I said I was OK and was looking for my classroom. He gave me directions and I hurried on. I met my mentor and sat in to observe her class. It wasn’t until the end of the class that I realized I couldn’t put weight on my foot. I had skinned both knees as well. They had to wheel me to the main office in a wheelchair. Later that day I found out I had broken my foot. Maybe this should have been a warning that I might be rushing in the wrong direction with teaching. I went on to complete the semester, with a boot on my foot for a good part of it.
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. Prompt word for today is ‘yard.’ Image ‘Teacher’ via Pixabay.com
“When I am constantly running there is no time for being. When there is no time for being there is no time for listening.”-Madeleine L’Engle
Does activity spell virtue or worth. Just because you are not doing anything does not mean you are doing nothing. Why is activity such a virtue? To be bustling around looking busy, saying to the world I have important work to do. One can be standing still and still doing a lot….of thinking.
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted Linda G Hill. Word prompt for today, “spell.” Featured image ‘Texture’ by cocoparisienne on Pixabay.com
“If nature has made you for a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart; and though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full, and you can give things out of that–warm things, kind things, sweet things–help and comfort and laughter–and sometimes gay, kind laughter is the best help of all.”-Frances Hodgson Burnett
I have been reading about how we need to keep a balance between giving and over-giving. How givers can turn into their dark side and become over-givers. Givers that really expect something in return. Givers can turn into little ‘Darth Vader’ givers, or Santa Claus on a spree, The Good Fairy gone wild. Giving too much can make others uncomfortable and resentful. The Giver can become resentful if they do not get their expectations fulfilled. It can be connected to ‘people pleasing.’ Maybe it’s just a case of unrequited love.
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt words for today, ‘give, giving, given.’ Featured image ‘Watery Heart’ by Pezibear on Pixabay.com
March is the beginning of Spring and according to The Old Farmer’s Almanac the first Full Moon of March is called Full Worm Moon by Native Americans. This is because Spring is the season when the earth gets warmer and the worms are supposed to return. You may ask where did the worms go during the winter? It turns out earthworms burrow down deep below the frost line and sit out the winter below ground. Other species of garden worms lay eggs and die. In the Spring, their eggs hatch. I have been digging around a little in my small patch in the backyard and I realize I haven’t come across any worms yet. I dug a hole to plant our new lime tree and just did battle with that Palm tree I told you about, and dug it up, but I did not see any worms. The worms are supposed to attract birds and I have seen various birds pecking around in the yard but they could be eating other insects or seeds. I am now officially on worm watch. Maybe it’s due to global warming. 😉
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word is “march.” Featured image of ‘Robin catching worm in Spring’ via wikimedia.
I just dropped in to see what condition my transition was in. I have managed to be going through a transition for a few years. One transition seems to be leading into another. I started my blog while in the middle of a transition from having a career to not. External circumstances thrust that change upon me. I felt like I was pushed into semi-retirement without having chosen it. My blog has been part of an exploration of what I am doing next. I have enjoyed being creative with my writing, but I do not want to do it full-time or be a writer of books. I have been tutoring part-time for a few years. I have struggled with the first transition. Going from a career oriented life to getting oriented to a life with no career. Or at least a job I had not planned on doing. I had planned to transition from a teaching full-time to a part-time teaching career eventually, but my plan did not work out as I envisioned. I never got the full-time teaching position. I worked as a substitute teacher for a while:
Then I started tutoring to see if that would develop into a business. Although I felt I was doing something good, I decided I didn’t want to develop it into something full-time. Now it feels like I am coming into another transition. I have been restless for quite a while. It’s just that the unknown makes me feel uneasy. Getting ready to let go of what I have been, and step into…..wherever my path may lead me next. Need to be willing to let it unfold by itself.
But the cacti are still flowering in my yard and I may soon be rolling in clover. 🙂 That’s my ever optimistic voice talking.
Clover in my backyard
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. Prompt word ” man.” Video of Kenny Rogers and First Edition ‘I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in‘ via 2old2Rock on You Tube. Featured image of Hummingbird on nest by jadis96 via Pixabay.com Video of teacher in class via Giphy.com
The 26 artists were paid $1 per hour to paint the frescos inside the Coit Tower in San Francisco as part of the Depression Era Public Works of Art Project. They created wonderful murals about the theme of “Life in California.”
There was a series on my local PBS station called California Gold hosted by Huell Howser. I found a video of his about Coit Tower. If you have the time to watch it covers a lot of interesting history about the tower and the murals, including an interview with one of the artist’s ( Bernard Baruch Zakheim) daughters.
Here are a few slides of some of the murals via Wikipedia:
The San Francisco Chronicle has some more beautiful photos of the murals.
This post is my contribution to Stream of Consciousness Saturday hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word is “project.” Featured image is Coit Tower Fire Haze Sunset by Chad1616 via Wikimedia. Photos of the murals from Wikimedia by Daderot (Newsgatherings, Railroad and Shipping, and Library), Saiko (City Life, Agriculture and Department Store), Orin Rozen(Industries of California) , and Wnewton 48( Industries of California).
Coit Tower at Dusk by skeeze via Pixabay
A Bull in a china shop
Let’s use paper plates.
Color Paper Goods by Susan on Flickr
Stream of Consciousness Saturday hosted by Linda G Hill. The prompt word “ham.” Featured image of Ceramic Bowls by LuggaWiggler on Pixabay.com